common test is coming

Here we go! into another round of tough papers with lengthy questions and lengthier answers!!! well i final got to the root of the problem between Darling and me. Apparently he prefers girls who are "girlie". Haha, I must be a tomboy in comparison to his ideal girl! To be fair to him, I believe I was slightly oversensitive t his remarks. Being a female is probably THE worst job to ever do..

Think about all the things a mature female ponders through per day! Its amazing that its all done with less than 3% of the human brain. And the mood swings! All the emotions, all relatively at the same time!

Heard a joke from an usher friend of mine (also called eugene tan haha).
It went like this:
A righteous man and God were having a conversation one day. God felt a strong urge to bless the man so He says,

God: You can have 1 wish/ desire and I will surely grant it.

Man: Can I have an expressway that links from one continent to another? That way, I can earn money from the people who use the expressway and they can travel to their destination quicker!

God: Why is your desire so materialistic? Why not ask for something that will benefit the whole of mankind?

The man thought over what God had said.
Man: God, could you give me a book on understanding women? I'd publish this book and sell it so that every male in the world would be able to understand women!

God pondered for a good 10mins.
God: How many lanes do you want for your expressway?

with love, Merilyn

Everythig's Alright!

In school now, checking up on this blog. As much as this blog can get "juicier" if I put another negative post about my relationship, its just not right. Thanks darling, for being patient. As well as to all the beautiful angels that God has placed in my life! God is ALWAYS good, and because of Him, Everything's Alright :)

softspoken

Blogging again.
Honestly, i think blogging helps me put down my hurts in words and allows me to reflect on where I've gone wrong. It has also shown me where God has helped me do something right. Kudos to blogging.

Anyway, Eugene wants me to be soft spoken. This means that I've to make a 180 degrees change. It really seems ridiculous. The person that said " I love everything you are." is saying, "I don't really like what you are." Of course, love isn't the same as liking. It's really unfair that I always have to make the changes.

bad bad bad post

why is it bad? cause today, i thought of things that should not be thought about.
I was reminded of the pain I had felt, yet it wasn't entirely the fault of the accused.

It's times like these that I really thank God that He is in my life. Cause whenever I feel that no one truly loves me, He reminds me that He is always there. And His love is perfect.

I'm sorry Eugene, that we don't really agree nowadays. That I'm not your ideal girl. In fact, I'm probably the opposite. Maybe its because we spend so much time with each other, and the flaws finally surface. I love you, and I hope we can emerge from our communication problems as victors!
I also resolve to build my self esteem, rather than compare myself with "others of the same species", choosing to believe that I am just as good as anyone in my own way.

my post

Walking with God is always adventurous! There are always blessings that come when we walk with God! Recently, I wrote a song! But I don't think its quite finished yet, so I've let my darling, Eugene, work on the cords and melody! when its done, I'll post it!

my post

Spirit

Had CG today! felt the presence of God as well as a burden for my CG. We can definitely grow to 15 core by the end of october! ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no valley low. lets go ALL out to reach our family, friends and fellow classmates/colleagues!

Soul

watched a movie :) of course it had something to do with fantasy! It's one of the better ways to let one's imagination grow! Also, I did up Esther's birthday present. It was fun and totally eco-friendly! newspapers and starbucks paper bag :) these were just the wrappings!
the actual present was what I called "Jar of Love". sweet eh?

Body

haha actually, my body is gonna die from an overload of french fries! Ate them at Mos Burger and at a neighborhood coffee shop! Its just TOOOOOOO tasty! carefully cut potatoes which were processed to keep their natural yummy-nes. Then, deep fried with love to a beautiful gold. Tenderly salted and gently mixed. MY FRENCH FRIES!!!! haha bon appetite~

my post

now, I'll try to create each post in a very orderly manner.
1.Spirit
2.Soul
3.Body
that way, the blog is complete, like a person!

1.Spirit

Yes, God is EXTREMELY wonderful to me! God always does exceedingly and abundantly above ALL my expectations, your's too! I was challenged to increase my prayer timing today. Dr. Yongi Cho prays for 4 hours a day! mine is indeed a mustard seed compared to his. Of course the all time example is Jesus! Imagine, waking up at 5 am in the morning, just to pray! After such a heavy schedule, He never forgot to pray!

2.Soul

did you know that our soul determines out humanity? keeping your soul alive is when you take time to RELAX! so, after fixing up my room, I blogged! haha!
I am also hoping to start reading fantasy/adventure themed books again! These authors are really creative! C.S. Lewis is such a great example! In his movies (Chronicles of Narnia) ,thhese are some of the questions that I ponder over. How in the world do you know how an "Ice Queen" is supposed to look like? What about ogres? To create such an apt character... sparks your imaginations yet?

3.Body

today, i got my furniture!
there's a huge Huge HUGE mirror in my room now! :) <-the mirror is actually a door for my new wardrobe!
and there's a new study table (helloooo scholarship!) +2 new table lamps.
oh yes, and a brand new rug! so the floor is no longer icy cold!

my post

Ok. today, church service was AWESOME!! God is such a good God! Many times we seek God for the wonderful things He can do in our life. We ask for His anointing, His wisdom and etc. And yes, it ALWAYS sounds as if we are extremely spiritual. Now, Rev. Pastor Kong has shown that to be a true child of God, it does not necessarily mean that we are spiritual just because we speak "christianese". To be a true child is run with the vision of the Father! Just like when Jesus said "Not my will but Yours be done"






Had my ups and downs today too! It maybe hard to take control of my emotions(largely because I am a female) but it is still possible! To all females who have already overcomed the "pms" problems, I salute you! To all females who are overcoming it, I'm totally with you. And to all females who don't intend to try (not too many hopefully) its time for a change in mindset!
Down with negativity!








Lastly, a shout out to Goh Wen Kai.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you! You are bound to receive lots of presents, blessings as well as tons of appreciation from friends cause you made such a lasting impact! (for me at least :) I have so many good things to say to you but I'll keep it short.
I thank God for this day cause 18 years ago, you were born! It was then it became possible for me to meet such a great and encouraging friend as you. May God bless you more than ever, not just today but for the many days that is still to come. Happy 18th birthday :) You deserve it!

My first sucessful blog

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