Today,

Resurrection

2010-02-25T10:09:00.000-08:00

time to bring new life to this old blog.
American Pie, if you're a lady, be prepared.
It's stuffed with guy humor so all the best!
Gotta pack up my room now.
Take care! :)

if you could turn back time

2009-08-31T20:34:00.000-07:00

what would you do if you could manipulate time?
things i would do if i could control time.

1.spend more time with my family
-it'll probably prevent certain things from happening.

2.spend more time with friends
-its essential for keeping them

3.stay 16 FOREVER :)
its sweet sixteen afterall

maybe i should go into the future and get the ultimate cure for cancer! then come back to our current time to be a multimillionaire!haha

wisdom grows

2009-03-18T10:42:00.000-07:00

Today is the last day of Evangelism Explosion Day Camp.
It was extremely enriching as well as thought-provoking. It is interesting how so many people would attend the camp so eagerly and expectantly especially when majority of the congregation are youths. Yes, under 35. It is a pleasant sight to see fellow youths so enthusiastic to change their lives for the sake of others!

Love is truly the greatest aim of all. It's not the warm fuzzy feeling that one experiences but an intentional effort and decision a person makes. And thats just level 1 love.
Why do I say so?
Well, if you are a victim of a kidnapping case/rape/molestation or witness of a murder of a dear one, can you ever find room in your already shattered hearts to forgive the person who commited these crimes? Frankly, it is near impossible for me. My family is currently facing a torrential storm of problems. For me to forgive the person who caused this mess, well, lets just say its THE last thing I want to do.

However, the bible mentions that we are to love people, EVEN if they are our enemies. Is it difficult? Of course! But near impossible is STILL possible. Such is the greatness of God. Now, don't think for a moment that I am trying to preach!. I am merely trying to share my inner most thoughts and feelings with you. You may choose to reject them.

If you would allow me, I would like to take this opportunity to tell all who have been hurt before, that the person who had hurt you is most unlikely to be deserving of your forgiveness. I definitely agree with you. But here's the thing. Jesus, a wonderful man, had been hurt by people THROUGHOUT His life. Yet, time and time again, He forgives and extends His genuine love. Can you imagine? People were shouting all sorts of vulgarities at Him as He staggered with a heavy cross on His back. If this were a descriptive essay, it would sound like this.

"Blood had caked on His heavily wounded body. His bruised body was beyond recognition after the excruciating flogging. Each step was a tremendous effort of both mind and body and the pain was far from comprehension. Foul and cruel abuse were hurled mercilessly at Him and the mockers were great in number. Humiliation of being paraded in nothing but loin clothes was evident. The mental torment was as heavy as the physical abuse. Yet, Jesus limped on."

This would be my narrative of the story though it is far from complete. However my point is that although Jesus was so hurt by the people. And these were the people He had done no wrong to. So why would a good man like Him, who did NOTHING wrong, want to die so painfully? Unloved, unwanted and uncared for by the general public.
This is because He loves the people. He forgave them all, although they did not deserve it. He did it for you, because He loves you. And don't ever forget that.

If you are a christian, then move to the next level of love. It is easy to love someone who has been kind to you, but it takes effort to love someone who has hurt you. Don't ever forget the love that was showed to you, because someone else may need you to show them this unconditional love too.

To all readers who have given me their precious time reading this post, thank you so much.
Jesus loves you and I love you too.
Merilyn

Life

2009-03-07T22:46:00.000-08:00

I'm hoping for the best!
cleaned my house today but 1 patch was cruelly dirtied after 1 hour of my hard work.
My sister spilled smelly cat sand on the floor. Had to clean it up, again. My brother was not at all tactful. Calling me a retard for asking my sis to clear up the mess she made definitely added fuel to my already burning rage. Yes, I'm being dramatic. Of course, I retaliated with my own form of sarcasm. Am I really 1 step closer to being like Christ? This incident is proof that I've yet to be 100% accepting of my brother's way of speaking. Honestly, saying that someone is a retard is by no means useful! It's times like these that 1 can gain incredible wisdom.
(1) Rather than calling a person a retard which only serves to prove that the person saying it is full of idiocy, keeping quiet would be a much wiser alternative.
(2) Being angry over a small problem is foolish especially when it can easily be rectified. Patiently cleaning up would of course be better
Yes, regarding my progress in managing my emotions, I'm definitely hoping for the best!

Life

2009-02-27T08:54:00.000-08:00

Today was one of the better days.
Though my POA paper had not gone as planned, the day was still filled with fun, excitement, joy and content. To Fiona Ramli, Jolyn, Yi hui,Dickson,Gerald,Jon and Yun sheng, thanks for the fantastic outing!
Firstly, we went to Sakura International Buffet. It was EXTREMLY filling! Meaybe because we ate to fast xp. Anyway, we ended up playing a game to finish the leftover food and it was hilarious! There were "saboteurs" though they didn't do it intentionally. :)

Was supposed to meet Eugene at 7. Guess it wasn't convenient so we didn't meet up. Its probably better that way. I finished my paper at 4, he wanted to meet his friends, Daryl and Stefanie, at 7pm for dinner. I was starving by the time my paper was finished.

Wait till 7?
No way!
Waiting for Sakura that could only start at 6 was enough torture, but as Jon said "You still gotta wait.".

Honestly, I would have still met Eugene up if he had agreed to meet me earlier and have a light snack. However, he was at Daryl's house and therefore could not meet me earlier. Fair enough. Now I know why he played computer games the WHOLE day yesterday.

Then, I thought Eugene would be coming over to my place for a sleepover and to finally spend quality time after our series of examinations. But, (yes, there's always a "but" or "however") he said he couldn't stay over though there were no reasons that he specified or gave for that matter. I'd rather not assume, so lets just say he couldn't due to unforeseen circumstances.

In his defence, he did offer to send me home first before he headed for home. And of course, I rejected. It wasn't wise for either of us anyway. Him sending me home would mean a series of frustrating calls and misunderstandings. I can live without both.

To add on to the above event, Stefanie backed out of the dinner date so it was just him and Daryl. He said he had fun, good for him!

Now, lets turn the attention to my classmates and I!
My classmates are extremely sporting! We played "pass the message" via charades and it was funny to see how the original action become so different. Also, we took a lot of pictures (duh) but i don't know how to upload them on blogs... sorry. you won't know how I look like unless you've seen me before *apologetic smile*
In a nutshell, it was FANTASTIC.

I thank God, because He puts wonderful people in my life in every single season or phase that I go through. I believe that He has put in me a destiny, just as He has in you. It is often through our friends that we can discover more about ourselves and this is something that I've learned today. Friends outside church can tell you what you're good at, friends inside church tell you what you can become great at. Its truly the best of both worlds. You get to know your strengths and weaknesses as well as the potential for you to become an even greater person! yes, friends are definitely important in life.

Life

2009-02-21T09:06:00.000-08:00

life being a bed of roses is probably the most true thing to me.
its probably the best way to show how balance is evident in life

Its all about You

2009-01-16T07:53:00.000-08:00

Common test results were out for quite a while but didn't post it up! Well merilyn, you've done pretty well. BUT these are the subjects that you MUST improve in.
1) Theory of Economics
2)Auto CAD
3)CATS
yup! gotta buck up!

relationships are the hardest things to maintain! Electronics are WAY WAY easier. For example, when a handphone cover is chipped, you just buy a new cover. If a laptop crashes, you just send it for a repair. But thats only if something bad happens to our precious gadgets. Its just spending a little money otherwise, you pretty much leave it as it is! Relationships on the other hand are much MUCH tougher. Not only do you invest money into them, you spend time effort and a whole lot of feelings into it! Imagine how many relationships God has with people! :)

common test is coming

2008-12-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

Here we go! into another round of tough papers with lengthy questions and lengthier answers!!! well i final got to the root of the problem between Darling and me. Apparently he prefers girls who are "girlie". Haha, I must be a tomboy in comparison to his ideal girl! To be fair to him, I believe I was slightly oversensitive t his remarks. Being a female is probably THE worst job to ever do..

Think about all the things a mature female ponders through per day! Its amazing that its all done with less than 3% of the human brain. And the mood swings! All the emotions, all relatively at the same time!

Heard a joke from an usher friend of mine (also called eugene tan haha).
It went like this:
A righteous man and God were having a conversation one day. God felt a strong urge to bless the man so He says,

God: You can have 1 wish/ desire and I will surely grant it.

Man: Can I have an expressway that links from one continent to another? That way, I can earn money from the people who use the expressway and they can travel to their destination quicker!

God: Why is your desire so materialistic? Why not ask for something that will benefit the whole of mankind?

The man thought over what God had said.
Man: God, could you give me a book on understanding women? I'd publish this book and sell it so that every male in the world would be able to understand women!

God pondered for a good 10mins.
God: How many lanes do you want for your expressway?

with love, Merilyn

Everythig's Alright!

2008-11-05T18:40:00.000-08:00

In school now, checking up on this blog. As much as this blog can get "juicier" if I put another negative post about my relationship, its just not right. Thanks darling, for being patient. As well as to all the beautiful angels that God has placed in my life! God is ALWAYS good, and because of Him, Everything's Alright :)

softspoken

2008-10-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

Blogging again.
Honestly, i think blogging helps me put down my hurts in words and allows me to reflect on where I've gone wrong. It has also shown me where God has helped me do something right. Kudos to blogging.

Anyway, Eugene wants me to be soft spoken. This means that I've to make a 180 degrees change. It really seems ridiculous. The person that said " I love everything you are." is saying, "I don't really like what you are." Of course, love isn't the same as liking. It's really unfair that I always have to make the changes.

bad bad bad post

2008-10-07T11:04:00.000-07:00

why is it bad? cause today, i thought of things that should not be thought about.
I was reminded of the pain I had felt, yet it wasn't entirely the fault of the accused.

It's times like these that I really thank God that He is in my life. Cause whenever I feel that no one truly loves me, He reminds me that He is always there. And His love is perfect.

I'm sorry Eugene, that we don't really agree nowadays. That I'm not your ideal girl. In fact, I'm probably the opposite. Maybe its because we spend so much time with each other, and the flaws finally surface. I love you, and I hope we can emerge from our communication problems as victors!
I also resolve to build my self esteem, rather than compare myself with "others of the same species", choosing to believe that I am just as good as anyone in my own way.

my post

2008-09-27T12:12:00.000-07:00

Walking with God is always adventurous! There are always blessings that come when we walk with God! Recently, I wrote a song! But I don't think its quite finished yet, so I've let my darling, Eugene, work on the cords and melody! when its done, I'll post it!

my post

2008-09-25T09:50:00.000-07:00

Spirit

Had CG today! felt the presence of God as well as a burden for my CG. We can definitely grow to 15 core by the end of october! ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no valley low. lets go ALL out to reach our family, friends and fellow classmates/colleagues!

Soul

watched a movie :) of course it had something to do with fantasy! It's one of the better ways to let one's imagination grow! Also, I did up Esther's birthday present. It was fun and totally eco-friendly! newspapers and starbucks paper bag :) these were just the wrappings!
the actual present was what I called "Jar of Love". sweet eh?

Body

haha actually, my body is gonna die from an overload of french fries! Ate them at Mos Burger and at a neighborhood coffee shop! Its just TOOOOOOO tasty! carefully cut potatoes which were processed to keep their natural yummy-nes. Then, deep fried with love to a beautiful gold. Tenderly salted and gently mixed. MY FRENCH FRIES!!!! haha bon appetite~

my post

2008-09-24T11:00:00.000-07:00

now, I'll try to create each post in a very orderly manner.
1.Spirit
2.Soul
3.Body
that way, the blog is complete, like a person!

1.Spirit

Yes, God is EXTREMELY wonderful to me! God always does exceedingly and abundantly above ALL my expectations, your's too! I was challenged to increase my prayer timing today. Dr. Yongi Cho prays for 4 hours a day! mine is indeed a mustard seed compared to his. Of course the all time example is Jesus! Imagine, waking up at 5 am in the morning, just to pray! After such a heavy schedule, He never forgot to pray!

2.Soul

did you know that our soul determines out humanity? keeping your soul alive is when you take time to RELAX! so, after fixing up my room, I blogged! haha!
I am also hoping to start reading fantasy/adventure themed books again! These authors are really creative! C.S. Lewis is such a great example! In his movies (Chronicles of Narnia) ,thhese are some of the questions that I ponder over. How in the world do you know how an "Ice Queen" is supposed to look like? What about ogres? To create such an apt character... sparks your imaginations yet?

3.Body

today, i got my furniture!
there's a huge Huge HUGE mirror in my room now! :) <-the mirror is actually a door for my new wardrobe!
and there's a new study table (helloooo scholarship!) +2 new table lamps.
oh yes, and a brand new rug! so the floor is no longer icy cold!

my post

2008-09-20T10:01:00.000-07:00

Ok. today, church service was AWESOME!! God is such a good God! Many times we seek God for the wonderful things He can do in our life. We ask for His anointing, His wisdom and etc. And yes, it ALWAYS sounds as if we are extremely spiritual. Now, Rev. Pastor Kong has shown that to be a true child of God, it does not necessarily mean that we are spiritual just because we speak "christianese". To be a true child is run with the vision of the Father! Just like when Jesus said "Not my will but Yours be done"

Had my ups and downs today too! It maybe hard to take control of my emotions(largely because I am a female) but it is still possible! To all females who have already overcomed the "pms" problems, I salute you! To all females who are overcoming it, I'm totally with you. And to all females who don't intend to try (not too many hopefully) its time for a change in mindset!
Down with negativity!

Lastly, a shout out to Goh Wen Kai.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you! You are bound to receive lots of presents, blessings as well as tons of appreciation from friends cause you made such a lasting impact! (for me at least :) I have so many good things to say to you but I'll keep it short.
I thank God for this day cause 18 years ago, you were born! It was then it became possible for me to meet such a great and encouraging friend as you. May God bless you more than ever, not just today but for the many days that is still to come. Happy 18th birthday :) You deserve it!

My first sucessful blog

2008-09-19T21:49:00.000-07:00

hey all! this is gonna be my very first succesful blog! hope you'd enjoy reading it and do tag me! I'd love to read what you wanna tell me :)